The Person I Want to Be

When I look back over the last few years, I feel a sense of pride for who I have become. But I still find it so easy to fall in the trap of comparing myself to others. Comparing my accomplishments, my dreams, my work, myself, to those around me. I focus so much on the progress that I still have to make that I fail to see how far I’ve come, and how much I have grown.

The problem is, I don’t exactly know where I want to go, or who I want to be. So, I thought I would take this time to answer the question for myself:

“Who is the woman that I want to be?”

The woman I want to be is kind. She lends a hand without a second thought when she sees someone in need. She knows that everyone is going through their own troubles, and doesn’t let hers hinder her ability to spread her kindness. She starts every day with open arms and an open mind.

She is honest: with herself, with her friends, and with her future. She speaks the truth even if it makes her voice shake. She doesn’t let herself get away with the half-ass. She goes after things with full force, or not at all.

She is confident. She believes in the person she is and doesn’t let other’s influence her opinion of herself. She carries herself with a grace that is contagious. She doesn’t waste her time with those who undervalue her.

The woman I want to be chases her dreams without reservation. She asks for help when she needs it, but knows that she is capable of anything.

She is thoughtful. She lives her life with intent. Every relationship she forms adds value to her life. When she loves, she loves deeply, but she isn’t afraid to walk away from those who cross her.

She is fierce. She lets nothing stand in the way of of what she wants. She doesn’t lose sleep over opinions that do not matter. There is a warrior within her.

The woman I want to be is brave. She looks at the things that scare her in the face and says, “I see you. Move aside, you’re in my way.” She doesn’t let her fear stop her.

She is strong in her convictions. She speaks out for the things that she believes in, even when its tiresome, because its the right thing to do. She stands up for the people who can’t stand up for themselves, and encourages others to do the same.

She is unapologetically herself. She does not dare to dim her light in order to make others feel more comfortable. She is aware of the fact that she’s not everyone’s cup of tea, but refuses to water herself down to please people.

The woman I want to be is happy. She dances in her kitchen, in the grocery store, on mountain tops. She celebrates every triumph no matter how small. She takes life day by day and is thankful for all of the little things in life.

She is in love with the world around her. She makes a point to wake up before the world and watches the sun light up the mountain peaks. She walks… runs… drives up mountains past midnight just to feel closer to the stars. She treats the world with the respect that it has treated her with.

The woman I want to be is warrior, and I am working hard to become more like her every day.


One thought on “The Person I Want to Be”

  1. Anina, You are an old soul- wise beyond your years and the best blend of two incredible people; your parents – who we love dearly. Thank you for the words that many of us feel in our hearts, but have never had the wisdom or the courage to speak them. You are a warrior!


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